Tim Duncan the giant of giants.

GO SPURS GO!!!!!!

Phoenix Suns are eliminated!!

Next team New Orleans Hornets.

Ficticiously Real Reality

What the hell is anything real anymore? I mean everything, I don't know is it just me or is it everyone, I honestly think it's most people but not everyone just the idiots in this world, but is anything real anymore? Love for instance what ever happened to that? For me it's been the most ficticious reality of my life. I'm the most caring, loving, and nicest guy in the world but everytime I even try to be with someone when I'm really close to a girl I become further and further away than I was close to them. On top of that almost every person I know that is in a relationship end up hating eachother more than loving eachother. Do relationships suck that much that people absolutely can't stand to see eachother again? But I know why it's because stupid shit ends up happening. I'm honestly giving up on love, becoming a nonbeliever in that relentless feeling that never leaves me alone that I honestly love but never becomes a reality for me and I'm sick and tired of the bullshit of it anymore, I've had too much bullshit to withstand anymore. If I find someone that believes in it again and shows me that feeling again I'll come back but I don't know when that will ever be again? Maybe if they weren't so blind they would see I love them but I'm not going to constantly try and love them to see it if they can't, I've tried that multiple times and that leads nowhere, I know that from many previous experiences in the last five years. Just in these last few months I've tried being with 3 different girls but forget it I'm done, I've tried and tried and tried so like you worte to me Princess Haiku "there is no happy love" as much as I hate to believe it it's pretty much true so far but I still think there's someone out there for me and sooner or later I will find her, I hope. Just takes time that's all. I'm just going to hibernate the feeling for the time being and awaken it when it's times again. I don't believe that love is just sex and infactuation there's more to it than that. Believe me I do believe in love it just hasn't happened for me yet, love is what keeps me happy and always will. Honestly I have found that person but she's gone, and I wonder. . . . will she ever read this too? ;)

But I won't lie my life sucks hardcore I'm trying desperately to make a start but it's almost impossible for a guy like me to even have anything to survive, I don't even want a car anymore honestly, I'll use my bike to get around because a car is just going to suck all of my money I have, on top of that traffic is ridiculous anymore too so. . . forget it, all I want is a place of my own to get the hell out of my house and live my life like I should, if I can ever afford a car I will have one but til then forget it, I don't care anymore. But ya know if I had love too my life would be alot better but love is one of those things that are ridiculous to believe in for most people but that's because so much bullshit has happened in the past for most people that no one believes anymore. So like I've said I don't know what the hell to believe in anymore. . . . I just don't know.

By the way this is my last post about this crap, well I don't consider it crap more of a corny rant and the last three posts I've written are rants so. . . and also I don't really cuss on my blog so forgive me for that on this post but I want to go back to what I used to post about, nature, sports, video games, movies, photography, technology, and such. It's just life's been really hard for me these past few months than usual but that's because life slipping by, I'm getting older, and something has gotta change in my life now.

By the way has anyone seen the movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall? It was so great and funny, kinda why I wanted to write this post because that movie was so true about how people are, including myself. I'm so much like Peter in that movie. I don't like dating girl after girl after girl I want one and to stay with that one for a very long time.

Oh also I got some pretty good CD's recently, I found out that CD Exchange can import CD's for you from anywhere in the US or Internationally, some are not imports but they're really great: Kings of Leon the album Aha Shake Heartbreak I love the songs Taper Jean Girl, Four Kicks, and King of the Rodeo on that CD, I recently heard of this band called The Jayhawks the album called Rainy Day Music which by the way is really good especially the song Anglyne. Ah what else oh all the Guillemots CDs thank you Miss Campbell for introducing me to that artist, I absolutely love them. Three Jack Jonhson CDs the three I didn't have which was Brushfire Fairytales, Sleeping Through the Static (his new one), and the soundtrack of Thinker Than Water. I'm also getting a Devotchka CD imported to me in the next few days to come. Anyways, I think that covers it but I'm going back for more in due time and when I have more money sadly the one thing that sucks is I sold my iPod to my brother so i got to save up for a new one, I'm so glad the Classic iPods went down in price.

One more great thing I've won close to $1000 playing bingo.

lol Heeheeeeee :D